Today, I sat for the Petronas Ability Test for scholars. If I pass this, then I’ll be shortlisted for the Structured Interview. I know some of my friends who planned to fail this test since the beginning we heard of it, because they wanted to be released by their sponsor (not sure if it’s that simple). I had that initial thought as well, but when the test came about, I decided to do my best anyway.
Why? It’s simple really. If I had purposely fail and give up the opportunity on my own will, should the day come when my own future plans do not work out, I might just end up blaming myself for giving up a rather lucrative opportunity. But should I pass this test, and still not get a job from them at the of the day, at least I know I have tried my best when I was supposed to. Those who know me well know that I have other plans in mind, and I will be more than glad to share those plans with my interviewers later, should I get through to it. I don’t owe it to anyone to do my best, but I owe it to me and the person God has made me to be.
In these five years, I have had a lot of fun experimenting and growing up and getting to know myself better. In a blink of an eye, half a decade has passed. And after taking this test, I have come to realize that I am one step closer to the end of it, and a beginning to a brand new chapter.
Wah, I feel so old, yet so ‘kecik-miau’ (small) at the same time.
I haven’t started missing UTP yet, but I do know I want to max my time out in my uni life while I still can. Like they say, you don’t know what you have until it is (almost) gone.